Tuesday, July 15, 2014

To Whom it May Concern

Look, thank you so much for caring . Over the years you've been an amazing support, a rock, and I wouldn't have got this far without you.  But please understand that when I'm upset, really upset and despairing, I don't need to be fixed.  I need to be allowed to be upset and to let everything out. To have the tears flow, to wail, to moan and to gnash my teeth. Honestly, it helps.  If you try to fix me I feel an unhealthy obligation to our relationship to demonstrate that your latest bright idea-which-will-solve-everything is just what I need, even if it isn't. Otherwise you might walk away and that prospect terrifies me. I couldn't cope with it.

So. Don't worry. I know that this phase will pass even though it's impossible to explain to you the reasons for my certainty.  Just let it be and just continue to be there.  Keep doing what you do so very well.  I don't expect anything else. Don't be frightened or anxious.  It's not down to you to make everything right. Really.